It's Been a While.....

I have i different seeming life now.

I'm in high school and it has changed me for the better:D

I shall tell you my story so far........

Things have died down with the incidents last spoken of, and i am in jazz band today. The internal reason for breaking up with Zach was because the first jazz band practice of this year has started. I see a boy and can't take my eyes off of him. He is not beautiful, nor anything special that any other person would recognize a boy for. He is simple. I look at him for the first time and i hear something in my head, i hear people telling me that he will be in my life. From this moment on, this boy will have my heart and not know of it.

Uggghh'

Well seth and mariiah are my best friends and i thought seth would understand about me braking up with zach.
but it's like he's pushing to be zachs best friend or something now.
i really just need time to think and seth's not giving me any.
i don't even want to talk to zach!!!
he kinda creeps me out now..
everyone's buggin me about it and i finally just told seth off.
he needed to hear that if he's gonna be my friend he's not gonna be making me feel horrible about every bad thing that i do...
i already feel horrible about bitchiong out on zach and then ignoring him but i honestly don't really want to talk to him.
i feel like a bumm on the street of happiness:[
well...
that's it for today..

Melody's mind control

Ugg..
there's this girl named melody and she's driving me nutts!
first offf.
i went out with a guy named Zach.
he didn't want to go out with me but his best friend Seth convinced him to ask me out.
Zach and i were out for about 8 moths, and every one in the whole school thought we were the cutest couple ever!!
so did I.. at the time.
then i started having second thoughts about him.
i somewhat fell into a black abiss of love for Seth.
Thats when i started to feel like a whore.
i kinda sorta flirted with seth and i think zach started to notice.
the things i liked about zach were reallllly starting to get on my nerves and he bugged the crap out of me from then on.
then there was Halloween.
i invited Seth and Zach to my halloween party and evidently if i wouldn't have invited zach he wouldve broken up with me.
wich wouldn't have sucked at all...
but noooo, i just had to invite him.
the truth is....
i think i'm in love with seth or something.
but ne-ways, i broke up with zach on wednesday and i had promised him b4 that i would say it to is face but i itched out and had my bff do it for me.her name is mariah, and if i didn' have her, i don't believe i could keep my sanity:]
But ne-ways
i broke up with zach after dating him for about 9 and a half months.
seth started acting like we would be best friends or someting and started asking me if i was mad at him or something..
witch i wasn't but ne-ways i broke up with him..
well...
mariah's likes seth...
alot...
so she was starting to make friends with melody and now mariah tells melody that she likes seth buches and melody asks seth if he ould want to go out with mariah. not if he will but if he would want to.
but mariah has a boyfriend named chance and she like him alot too.
so melody...
like always stared to like seth and tells mariah the she wants to kiss seth.
ummm...
if you ask me... that's a little mean.
so now mariah is oober mad at melody.. and raven{my other friend} and i are mad at melody because we cant believe she actually would do that to mariahandn now melody likes Levi{raven and mariah's crush} and raven, mariah, and i think melody just came to be our friend because she did what she's doing to us right now to all of her past friends and now everyone hates her except for Seth.
i feel horrible for seth because he's gonna get hurt if he goes out with melody because she acually has another boyfriend at the moment, which she has already cheated on with this awesome kid named Daltin.
So basicly, melody is a liar, a cheater, a hoe bag, and just a plain mean person.